Title: Tangled Mind
Author: Posy Roberts
Publisher: Dreamspinner Press
Pages/Word Count: 76 Pages
At a Glance: The author draws the reader into the story very well, if painfully
Blurb: For years Beck Lund has taken care of his volatile boyfriend, Brady, always putting Brady’s needs above his own and walking on eggshells to keep the peace. After Brady overdoses on heroin, his death devastates Beck. Thankfully Beck’s best friend, Timothy Kallis, finds him the help he needs. Beck slowly starts to recover and moves in with Timothy to get back on his feet, but he’s oblivious that Timothy is secretly nursing romantic affection for him.
Beck focuses on his own healing for the first time in his life. After months of challenging his codependent tendencies and learning how to stand up for himself, Beck finally starts to trust his gut and hopes to one day love again. Timothy is patient throughout, taking care of Beck in ways no one ever has. But if Beck can’t recognize Timothy’s affection for him, it might be too late for them to move beyond friendship.
Review: Posy Roberts states in her acknowledgments that this story came to her in a torrential downpour of emotions. That is an accurate assessment of the opening of the book. We witness the overdose death of Beck’s partner of ten years, and we wallow in his grief for several chapters right beside him. During these beginning chapters, we also learn about Beck and of the details of his long relationship with Brady. We want Beck to break free of the remaining tendrils from that life, and to heal and be healthy. It is a very emotional time in Beck’s life, and the author draws the reader into the story very well, if painfully.
One thing that I loved about this book was the relationship between Timothy and Beck. Timothy is a friend of long standing to Beck, and you know that Timothy loves Beck and wanted him healed and well, but there was no timetable imposed, no sense of anything but acceptance for Beck’s struggle with his grief. The chapter headings were quirky too, relating to the steps of healing in grief and the growth in the relationship between the two men. They formed a closer friendship, and Beck moved into Timothy’s home as a roommate as he needed help to get back on his feet, and he needed companionship as well.
Confusion is the title of chapter seven, and this is the turning point in the story. Timothy has told Beck how he feels, and they had a lovely sexual interlude, but then it is morning. I think that Beck is finally ready to move forward with his life, and so does he. But confusion, right…Timothy runs and Beck has to really look and see what he has grown into. This is a very dark book that deals with a man’s journey from a very unhealthy relationship, and his struggles with grief and his own sense of self. As he grows into an emotionally healthy man who is able to stand on his own two feet and be happy about himself, he learns how to be a partner and value being equal in a relationship. Beck’s new strength makes us happy for Timothy, as he will get the partner he deserves after being the best kind of friend that Beck needed for so much of the book.
I was sure of the HEA that was the conclusion of the story. The characters were well built and fit with each other; they had a relationship that I could only see good things happening to. My only complaint is that I would have liked more of the happy, an epilogue for more of a glimpse into their future, maybe a holiday celebration shared with their friends, something nice to balance the heavy of the start of the story.
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